i wash my hands clean of you

bleedingxtruth @ 2006-03-16T22:38:00

2006-03-17T06:39:13Z

why is it that the worst thing in the world for me felt like the best?

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-12-30T22:17:00

2005-12-31T06:19:35Z

slit the wrist...
drain the blood...
and bury the body.
my life as i know it is over...
everything will be different,
and i will make sure of that.
it all starts tomorrow night.
fuck a resolution...
this is a promise!

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-11-17T21:33:00

2005-11-18T06:18:19Z

The good days drifted into the bad...
i was so excited for my Kevin to come home and that was awsome... the first night back we just held each other, just stay in contact in any way... he was sooo tired, he snored like crazy... he is so cute when he snores

we bought X-MEN Legends 2, yes we are dorks we play video games together, and we played that for a while

we went to Chucky Cheese, we were so cute and i kicked his ass at the basket ball game

i was looking forward to thanksgiving and christmas

now things are kinda fuzzy... i dont know if he is coming to either on, he said he will think about it and let me know tomorrow

i love him but i dont want to keep fighting over the same old shit.... blah blah blah

dont listen to me im stupid... i love him, he is awsome... and the best thing that ever has, or ever will, happen to me

I LOVE HIM!!!
I LOVE HIM!!!
I LOVE HIM...
my heart hurts

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-11-09T14:20:00

2005-11-09T22:39:52Z

Stuff for sale
Most of the items are brand new all in good condition i just have no use for them any more...all could make good christmas presents
$8... obo
$10... obo
$8... obo
$10... obo
$30... obo
Beautiful Wiccan prayer book $6... obo
$8... obo
comes with little booklet $15 obo
starter kit great to thrash on or maybe for a little bro or sis, comes with small amp, cord, and travel case, payed $400 for the kit... $200-180... obo
netting to hang over a bed... $10... obo
REALLY GOOD ACOUSTIC.... not sure how much i want to sell it for, make an offer

i have over a 100 beany babies also uif anyone wants those all in awsome condition... good christmas presents for little ones

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-09-03T18:22:00

2005-09-04T01:25:04Z

im going to the south... hurricane relief... my tummy is in knots

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-08-19T22:27:00

2005-08-20T05:28:28Z

You know its a BAD day when slitting your wrist sounds like a GOOD idea.

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-08-09T02:19:00

2005-08-09T09:52:00Z

"Carlito's Way" is the worst movie to see if you know any one who has been to jail or is going to jail. it will make you cry for hours.

so in a week me and kevin will have been going out for 6 months. thats so crazy. i never thought we would be as close as we are. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

im gonna talk to my friends mom about buying her 55 chevy 150 4-door sedan. it looks like a bel-air but its the bottom of the line chevy. it is is kinda bad shape (its been sittin outside for god knows how long) so i would have to turn it into a kustom, but thats no big thing, it to expensive to restore n e way. she just lets the car sit there because she wants the plates on the car... whats the point in killing the car for some god damn plates? so its gonna rust away to nothin.

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-07-06T19:20:00

2005-07-07T02:21:35Z

ok so i have two tickets to warped tour on the 7th in sacramento for sale of maybe free. if you want them give me a call 914-5650.

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-06-02T01:29:00

2005-06-02T08:35:26Z

i really should be asleep right now...

it kinda sucks that no one (accept for katie <3) has replied to my post or called me...

i feel really distant from everyone...

i won $40 playing poker.

i want my boyfriend home. i love him.

its amazing how much you appreciate things when you work all the time. vacation in a month...yosemite for a week with the family and the bf it will be great

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-05-31T14:37:00

2005-05-31T22:02:39Z

so here is my problem... for the past year and a half i have had one friend, i have hung out with other people a couple of times, but 99.9% of my time has been spent with this one person. that was all fine and dandy up untill about three months ago when she got a boy friend and pretty much totally dumped me. you see she has this problem that she dosent really care about people... its just all about the one person she is clinging to at the moment... and im no longer that person and i wont be treated like that, im a better person than that, and i wont be thrown aside because she thinks she has found something better. she no longer makes any effort to spend any time with me, im the only one who calls, and i have a boyfriend too, and work two jobs, so thats no excuse.

so my answer is...take my heart out of that relationship, i wont not be her friend or not answer her calls (is she ever dose call) but im no longer going out of my way to call or see her.

thats the problem with your heart being in one place because when that person breaks it the whole thing is broken. i need to spread my self out, share my heart, so if it gets broken again its only a little peice.

lots of friends is a good thing a lot more healthy.
i miss a lot of you n e way.
i guess this is my push to hand out with old friends.
and make some new ones.
if you want to hang out call me.
914-5650

my heart hurts.
i hate crying.

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-05-04T13:23:00

2005-05-04T20:59:11Z

we slept on the lifeguard tower

these are the track of the beach officer that woke us up... he was nice about it though

the pretty car in front of the dinner we had breakfast at

the dinner had these cool trivia cards... that Krystin spilt tea all over

our hair looks like ass...but hey it was a spontanious trip, and we slept on the beach, and did not bring a brush

can you tell i spent three years in floralculture

i love this store in downtown

words to live by

we had a beautiful drive home

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-05-03T21:48:00

2005-05-04T04:57:35Z

so now i have no life...no time for one... between boyfriend, family, friends, two jobs (oh for those of you who dont know i no work at torrid as well as b&n) taking care of ten puppies, and atempting to get at least a little sleep, im going crazy.

its great though...kinda...i still have to pay for my phone bill, gym membership, speeding ticket, trafic school, fuel line, registration, and insurence. ahhhhhhhhhhhh! i should have bank after that though.

i want to get a new camera. i am in love with the canon eos digital rebel and i saw it on ebay cheap.

i miss my boyfriend... i love him so much.

im gonna go take a bath now.

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-04-04T13:17:00

2005-04-04T20:26:52Z

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-03-29T02:26:00

2005-03-29T11:07:16Z

                                         The Blackhawk Automotive Museum

                                                         This car is a boat, its huge and one of my favorites in the museum

                                                                                                 this car is made mostley of wood


                                                                                  the whole car is pink inside and out





                                                                                        The Tucker by far the most beautiful car in the world




                                                                                         she will take you breath away

                                                             San Francisco
                                                                                              (me, krystin, kevin)












                                                                                                                                               stupid tourist chasing the swan
                                                                                                                           We watched the Bush Man scare people














                                                            San Francisco
                                                                                       (Me and Krystin random trip)
                                                                                                                        we slept at Vista Point







                                                                                                                                       we drive really fast


                                     and we found th Mystery Machine


                                                           Krystin and Nick

                                                The Gay Bar in the Castro
                                                 (here is a little tip kids... in the Castro bouncer dont show up till after 9pm)                                                                                                                      Jerome, Nikki, Oscar, Nick, Krystin, Me



                                                                                                     they are all shit-faced drunk... and im sober mom again




                                                        Santa Cruz
                                                                                (Me Krystin and Matt)


                                                                                                     the best sand heart in the world

                                                                                                                  i love my baby

                                                                                                           we slept on the beach
                                                                                                                      they did not get up early
                                                                                                                 and the wave got em




                                                                                                                                              our morning drive

                                                                                                                 matt with my umbrella





                                                                                                                                                                           this looks like a cell phone add to me

                                                                                                         we had fun in the vintage shops

                                                                                                             Krystin and Matt on the peir





                                            on the board walk....it was closed and empty, but beautiful




                                                                                   The End

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-03-23T18:56:00

2005-03-24T02:58:10Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Lindsey Arleen McIntire
Birthday:	December 30, 1985
Birthplace:	Wallnut Creek
Current Location:	Tracy... blah
Eye Color:	Hazel(changes color depending on what im wearing)
Hair Color:	brown, for almost a month now, you all should be proud
Height:	5'8"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right handed
Your Heritage:	irish, scottish, and swedish... in other work ill fuck you up
The Shoes You Wore Today:	ballet slippers... they are what i got to work in
Your Weakness:	being to emotional
Your Fears:	im afraid i am or am going crazy
Your Perfect Pizza:	white sauce, chicken, and bacon
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	move out and become an EMT
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	i pretty much never im n e more
Thoughts First Waking Up:	this morning i thought of Kevin
Your Best Physical Feature:	i think i have great lips, guys would say my boobs though
Your Bedtime:	i never have a set time. i hate slepping during the day though
Your Most Missed Memory:	State FFA. the year with luke and gabe and jeff
Pepsi or Coke:	COKE
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Macdonalds
Single or Group Dates:	both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	neither, but if i hade to say one, chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee
Do you Smoke:	i havent in over a month
Do you Swear:	a lot
Do you Sing:	love to, do it all the time
Do you Shower Daily:	yes... unless i go on a trip or somthing where i cant
Have you Been in Love:	once before...and i am right now
Do you want to go to College:	im in college now
Do you want to get Married:	yes...ONCE...and be happy
Do you belive in yourself:	most of the time
Do you get Motion Sickness:	i used to
Do you think you are Attractive:	sometimes
Are you a Health Freak:	hell no
Do you get along with your Parents:	mostly my mom and thats not even all the time
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yes
Do you play an Instrument:	the violin
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	motrin
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes...every dame day i work
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	ewww
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	nope never
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	hell no
Ever Shoplifted:	nope
How do you want to Die:	in my sleep at an old age
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	thats a little fuzzy now... i have a lot of dreams
What country would you most like to Visit:	ireland
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	blue/ both
Favourite Hair Color:	black/ both
Short or Long Hair:	medium for boys/ medium to long for girls
Height:	5'8" to 6'4" for boys/ 5'6" to 5'9" for girls
Weight:	skinny boys/ curvy girls
Best Clothing Style:	rockabilly, hardcore/ both
Number of Drugs I have taken:	about 4 or 5...but that was a long time ago
Number of CDs I own:	over 100
Number of Piercings:	7...6 ear, one lip
Number of Tattoos:	no :(
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	nothing... i have either enjoyed it or learned from it
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-03-22T17:03:00

2005-03-23T01:06:44Z

so i have the best boyfriend in the world. sunday night he said i love you, and last night when he brought me home he was just gonna drop me off but he stayed for three hours because he did not want to leave me. that is the best feeling in the world.

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-03-16T16:32:00

2005-03-17T00:54:13Z

so i have had a pretty crappy past two days... just been in a mood... and the fact that i have been home alone for most of the day dose not help... time to think... thinking when your in a mood = bad

so im a little stressed about dating a guy 9 years older than me... i dont have a problem with it, we care about each other, we get along great. but people have been fucking with my mind, saying shit about him being a father figure because my dad was never there. why do people make me question what i know is right?!?!

he called me and i didnt talk much just because my mood... and thats one of our problems... me not being able to tell him things... i tried to call back... he is out some where... i was ready to talk... now i have class i wont be able to talk to him tell late tonight.

he is going to work on his other house by the beach... and i work every night this weekend... i cant take not seeing him for this long.

i look like crap and he called my beautiful

wow got to go my dog is haveing puppies

bleedingxtruth @ 2005-03-11T09:29:00

2005-03-11T17:40:11Z

i cant believe how long it has been since i wrote in this thing. well i still work at Barnes and Noble goin on 7 months now, me and krystin are the best of friends, she is dating Matt Lemons and they are great together, i am dating Kevin and he treats me better than any one ever has, my parents are ok that im dating him and that he is 9 years older than me, and i have a high B in my EMT(emergency medical technician)class. life is good.... i need to write in here more!

bleedingxtruth @ 2004-10-18T12:41:00

2004-10-18T19:44:05Z

yeah im a super loser and i got napster... and all i do is listen to the new gwen stefani song (im addicted to it) and download prince purple rain cd.

dont you wish your were as cool as me?

Nicole i love you dont be sad!

i want to kill krystin latley

bleedingxtruth @ 2004-09-13T22:23:00

2004-09-14T05:27:18Z

so on saturday me krystin kevin and i went to santa cruz....it was awsome...we had clam chowder in a bread bowl, played in the ocean, wrote lesbian sayings in the sand, and slept on the beach. on sunday we spaent the whole day at kevins he mad us breakfast lunch and dinner, and we watched season 2 of sex in the city.

bleedingxtruth @ 2004-09-01T12:02:00

2004-09-01T19:14:46Z

If n e one loves me and wants to buy me these shoes i will love you forever!

they are from Louis Vuitton and they are only $645. In red please.

The Killers and cell phones

2004-08-11T23:41:23Z

i just got a new cell phone... and i have an actual plan now... no more gay pre paid... if you want my # leave a commment.

The Killers cd rocks... "somebody told me" just makes me want to dance

im going to a club tonight with Krystin and Kevin... should be fun even though Krystin dose not know how to dance

working at the mall is the best thing that has happened to me in a long time. the people i work with are the best and best of all i get to see nicole a lot!

i cant believe kt is comming back... i need her here so much...
soon soon soon... not soon enough

on the other hand im a little scared for kt to come back seeing how close i am to her and how close ive become to Krystin. usually krystin and i dont do well with a third or fourth person. I hope to god it will work out.

bleedingxtruth @ 2004-07-26T20:38:00

2004-07-27T03:44:01Z

so i went to see suicide girls on sat. all are amazing looking and amazingly nice.

i hope kevin wont have to leave...he is really important to krystin and i and a year is far to long

i have a job! yes i said I HAVE A JOB... i work at barnes and nobles and i start tomorrow

i miss nicole and im tired of just saying it...im calling her tomorrow and asking her to go to lunch with me....i hope she is not busy.

bleedingxtruth @ 2004-07-20T17:01:00

2004-07-21T00:52:34Z

i hate interveiws.... i just had on at barnes and nobel and i have one tomorrow at sonic...this one went pretty well even though i think i said "stuff" a million times. i think ill work on eliminating that word from my vocabulary.

the people at sonic are stupid and flaky and make me really not want to work there... i had a small interview on sat. and it went pretty well so the lady told me to come back at 9:30 on monday. monday rolls around and im there at 9:15 because "if your early your on time and if your on time your late" and there was no manager there, they said come back at 11:30. i came back and there is a manager there but its the same one i talked to before...she said she ment to call me and that i should come back on wed at 9:30 so we will see how that goes. idiots.

oh the sonic lady asked if i liked their food and i said yes but i really wanted to say no your food is crap, but im a great salesman.

if you like old cars GO TO THE BLACKHAWK AUTOMOTIVE MUSEUM. i went there with krystin and kevin, and it was amazing. at on point i was actual in tears from the cars. and even better, THEY HAVE A TUCKER.... if you dont know what that is, its a car that was built in 1948, had a engine in the back (the first and i believe the only american car to have that) went 0-60 in ten seconds which was absurd for that time, and there was only 51 built. Go rent the movie it will tell you more about the history (good movie)

bleedingxtruth @ 2004-07-09T14:32:00

2004-07-09T22:12:35Z

i saw normal like you again last night. the show was awesome but i was a little sad without chad there. Mark (the new drummer) is very talented and extremely nice. i swear john b gets hotter every damn day.

Paul was there... i got to tell him i love him, hes my favorite. Lmao. i dont like the way he is starting to look... to many ugly tattos... like the one on his neck...highley annoying. o well what ever floats his boat.

i also saw hayley there...thats was really weird, never thought id see her again.